Having a moment

Well it's only 9:30 am & I already want to go back to bed. I feeling like a big bawl baby today & I'm sure part of it is due to the fact that I went off the medication they prescribed me to help with muscle pain.  Cold turkey I'm done taking it, it wasn't helping & I really don't want to be on an anti-depressant  even if it was helping I don't think the side effects were worth it. So this morning I found out I don't get to find out my test results for another 2 weeks, blah that really bummed me out. I was really hoping to find out this week. Do I Have It Or Not & Let's Move On! Sorry I know I am being a baby. Then I went & read & blog I have been following for awhile, a very very sad blog , the little baby Tripp passed away. It's good he did, because he is now pain free, & with Heavenly Father,  still way sad that him & his family had to go through it. They are very very strong! Check out her blog here "EB'ing A Mommy


So yes I am wallowing today. Not to mention we have a meeting to get yelled at by my boss today at 4pm CAN'T WAIT!  Can today be over? Tomorrow will be better, I have the day off, I'm going to read, have a fire, drink tea & get a massage YAY!

Anyways they think I have FSHD-Fascioscapulohumeral Muscular Dystrophy I have come to terms with it. I was a bit freaked out at first, but if I have it I've had it for awhile & my dad has it also, so I will be ok. I just want results. They told me I might have it December 20th, it's just a long time to wait for results, & if I don't have it I just want to be able to move on, find out what is wrong with me. Sorry for the waaa waaa blog post I just needed to vent this morning, so I'm getting it out.
Everyone have a great day, be safe & stay warm in this crazy cold wind.