Our Family Session

This is our family session with The Stork And The Beanstalk Photography. Ashley lives in California, but if you are interested in booking a session she is coming to Utah at the end of August. You can visit her blog and book a session via email. Thanks so much Ashley! We will cherish them always.

9 months

Holy crow! My little chicken nug is 9 months. 

This little man is bursting with personality!  He is very outspoken for not being able to properly form words. He is still refusing to crawl though he does scoot around to what he wants. He wants to stand constantly and has been trying to get up on his own. He still loves being worn by mom & sometimes it's the only way I get anything done. Unfortunately I had a mom of the year moment this week while wearing him. I was cooking & his little hand got away & touched the pan. I felt so so horrible. It's not a super terrible burn, but I still feel like crap. Luckily he is tough & only cried for a moment. 

On nursing! 

We are still nursing & going strong. He still nurses every 2 hours. Thank goodness that is not the case at night. Thank goodness we can nurse still!! With him not being able to digest anything besides breast milk. I tried to start feeding him some baby food a couple times a day & nope... He can't digest it. So I stopped and he is just going to nurse & try small bites of moms food. So again I am so thankful we can nurse. It would be a nightmare for this little guy if I wasn't able to nurse him. So I will & screw the food for now after all food before 1 is just for fun. On another note I  have been surprised at how uncomfortable nursing this old of a baby  makes people...

I think somehow the world has gotten it in their heads that 6 months is the cut off. Well think what you want people. If ash & I are happy nursing then don't worry about it. I can't wait to see people reactions when I'm nursing after 1. Sometimes it is a pain though. This boy will not use a cover & will not nurse in public. If anyone is around or talking he pulls off constantly. He doesn't want to miss a beat. Him being distracted equals him getting frustrated & biting. No thanks, so we nurse in the car. Poo. This leads to me not wanting to go anywhere. So yep, I like to stay home. Sorry peeps! 

He now does the milk sign back! Yay

He says da da 

His version of dog more like daw

He imitates the cat meowing sounds like maaaaa, he waves bye & says ba ba ba ba (bye bye) 

He loves trucks & cars. 

He has a dozer that he loves. 

He pushes them around & makes sounds like a car. I love it, it's so cute!!

He still loves music & does his own singing by making a long sound example daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa & he makes sure it's loud. 

He is obsessed with my coffee & gets mad every morning that I won't let him have it. 

He has started throwing little fits or screaming at us when he doesn't want that. I'm not a huge fan of this, but hopefully learning more signs will help. 

He is a huge mommas boy & I wear him a lot. Some people don't think I should or don't agree with it. They say I spoil him, by not making him cry. It's okay tho. Everyone can/or did raise their own kids how they want. He is a much much happier baby when I wear him. Happy baby equals happy mom. He is a very curious boy, I think he will be much happier when he can get around. He is going to be in everything. Anyways...

This boy is so so fun. He is such a blessing! He is growing & learning so quickly! It's so fun to watch & makes you feel so accomplished when they learn even the smallest tasks. I am so thankful & love you do much Ash! 

To add

We are so thankful for Mike, he is such a great daddy & husband.  I am so blessed that he works so hard so I can be home with our boy! 

As a note for everyone... 

I write all this kind of as a journal. I want to remember these things & I print my blog so that I can. I am glad to share it & I know family enjoys it. So If it bores you don't read it. Ha ha. Have a great day. Xoxo

A week of firsts

well this last week has been a week of many firsts!

my first week as a SAHM
I honestly thought that the day might drag on a bit after being home a couple days in a row. sooooo not the case. if anything I could use a few more hours in the day. i am loving being home with my baby, and i like to think he enjoys it as well.

asher got his first two teeth.
i never realized how teething could transform your child into a crazy up & down mess. what a doozy!!
i am so glad i was home with him while he got his first teeth. not a happy man, we took many ,any a walks about the neighborhood. it somehow makes him forget that he feels like crap. poor dude, we have both come to the conclusion that teething is an ass, a real big jerk.

while he was teething we also conquered another obstacle.  THE SWADDLE
yep he no longer has to be swaddled to sleep. yahoo!!! let me just tell you how much sleep i got the last two weeks between teething & him getting used to the free arms. it wasn't fun, & i was so thankful i didn't have to work.

on another note...  he has to nurse to sleep, probably a bad habit. i just didn't see how to avoid it because he falls asleep when nursing before napping and before bed. should i wake him (seems counter productive) or not worry about it? i'm not really into the CIO method. any suggestions?

he wants to crawl so bad, but still hates being on his tummy. i put him on all fours & he lowers down & rolls over. when i hold him on the couch or floor he is constantly slinking out of my arms, but when he gets out of my arms and off my legs he cries because he can't go anywhere. lol

another couple of firsts though small i want to remember...
he has a toy phone i always pretend to talk into, and when i hold it up to his ear he grabs it and talks.
he has a small toy plane & yesterday i caught him laying on his back while zooming it through the air and making sounds.
we have also been learning to clap & wave bye.

i am so so glad i decided to stay home with him & i didn't realize how important schedule was to me.
it's so much better to have him on a consistent (most of the time unless i have errands) nap schedule. it makes for a way happier babe.

 ^^although he is now actually closer to 8 months, above was 7 months. 

his hair is getting so long & uncontrollable.

i LOVE it

new journey

i haven't written in awhile, been too busy, had too much on my mind. i'm back though and I want to get some thoughts out. i've decided I need to learn to keep my damn mouth shut. life really has a way of making me eat my words. i'm not having a kid,  i could never be a stay at home mom. well foot in mouth. Point made life. never say never. you don't really know until you are there in the situation. I was young & I was a dumb ass when i said those things.

parenting...
yes this is all i talk about these days. it is my whole existence. it is mostly all i think about, and all my life revolves around. besides the occasional book i've read, some good albums and a rather disappointing one. parenting is really all i have to talk about. this doesn't get you friends ha ha, at least it doesn't score any points with mine.  they don't have kids. the ones that do have kids have older ones and are too busy. i sometimes feel like the before child me no longer exists. i still love all the things i did before, and i'm still me. it's just not important anymore. i hope this doesn't sound like i'm complaining, i'm not sad about it. it is what it is. i love asher more than anything in the world and that is why other things are no longer important. i am excited for the day my friends have babies tho and join the mommy world.

i never thought...
i knew my child would come first before i had one. i just never realized how first that was. i never thought if the choice was between me peeing or my crying baby getting fed i'd hold it & feed the baby first.(no I don't always baby him that much, just an example. i do go to the bathroom.)

i never thought breast feeding would be so so damn hard and so amazingly bonding at the same time. my favorite cuddle time.  my goal was 6 months for breast feeding (whoot I made it) it's now a year maybe longer. honestly i couldn't quit breast feeding if i wanted to. due to working we have had to supplement with formula. asher can't digest it, we've tried everything.

i never thought/knew i'd have the courage to say screw and breast feed in public without a cover because my baby refuses one these days.

before you have a baby you don't think about all the little things, i'm not gonna get into it. you will understand when you have one if you don't already.

i never ever thought i'd be a stay at home mom or that working with a child would be so damn hard. here i am quitting my job so i can stay home with my baby so he can go potty & i can raise him as best as i can.

people kept telling me it would get easier to work as he got older, nope not true. just different. i know plenty of mommies work with kids, and i wanna say hey you kick ass! i'm not saying being a stay at home mom is easier tho, those moms kick ass too.

i never thought i'd be so into the attached parenting/co sleeping thing. if you don't agree with it or think i'm spoiling my baby that's fine. yes he still gets up multiple times per night & that's fine with me. i love the cuddly & calm middle of the night nursing sessions. don't get me wrong i would love to sleep though the night at least once, but i know that this will pass and i will miss my warm late night cuddles from the boy i love so much.



So yes i'm quitting my job, embarking on a new and very scary(to me) adventure. my biggest fears are us starving to death and me going stir crazy. ha ha.  i love my job and this was a very hard decision for me. mike and i decided it was the best decision for us at this time. i feel pretty guilty about it. hopefully it all works out for the best.

asher is now setting up on his own and growing so fast. it's so fun and so sad to look at pictures and realize how quickly he's growing and changing. he is a ham and full of personality. he is going to be into absolutely everything when he can crawl. i don't doubt that he will be chasing the dogs and cat around the house in no time. it's a good thing they love him. it is so amazing to be a parent. every bit of it, the extreme amount of  love, the exhaustion, the worries, the giggles, the cuddles & the rewarding moments. I love being a mom & i'm looking forward to this new journey as a stay at home mom. hopefully ash will go potty (no more formula, yahoo)  I will get my house clean & dinner made once in awhile. :)